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Untitled Love Note..

2009-07-13T22:53:00.002+08:00

Love...ever thought of Love or lets say ur Loved One as a pen?? haha seems lame?then give some thought bout wat i'm gonna say...Try this..hold a pen with 2 fingers..stick it out..n tats a definition of the start of Love..Now dun ever take tat hold for granted..In time,u nid to learn to grasp the pen tightly together with ur remaining 3 fingers..to ensure that the tight hold determines the strong Love between u n ur loved one..wat happens if u dun learn to grasp with ur 5 fingers?well simply put,there might b a third party to steal that pen away from u or then again,if u took that pen for granted,he/she might just slip away from that 2 fingers of urs..never to return..Trust me,u never want to see that happen..so cherish ur loved ones..for as long as u can..grasp Love tightly,protect ur Loved ones with ur Life..and always remember that a strong grasp ensures that ur love is safe from being stolen,but being too strong(lets say being a control-freak)also brings a relationship to an unimaginable catastrophy..

Dont rush Love,the more u rush the more complicated it becomes..so just go with the flow n it'll come naturally..

So,How long will i be waiting...until the end of time...??
I dont knw why i'm still waiting,i cant make u mine.. *putting a smile,even when the pain inside is unbearable*

I Love her,she loves him..n i'm sure he would love her as well..

2009-07-10T01:01:00.001+08:00

Ponder upon this..
I never knew there would b a better tomorrow
but u've come into my life n taken away all my sorrow
My days of sadness are a thing of the past
because i hav found true love at last..
My days of emptiness are gone for good
because u fill a void in my heart that u should
You've open a window
You've shown me the light
And my Love for u will continue to burn bright..

So wat do u think of this poem?some kind of heart throb who's head over heels over his/her partner?hmm nicely written but too bad i dont believe in this poem...so would u agree with the saying..Its better to have love than never..? coz i sure dont..ok wat do i mean by this? ppl talk bout being in love as a huge un explainable n sensational feeling tat a person could encounter rite?but tats just some idiot who interpreted it tat way..so wat i'm saying is..a person who quotes tis must already hav been rejected by a girl/guy rite?he/she wouldnt hav come up with this quote n might hav led a better less hurtful more enjoyment kind of life if it had not been for that so heartwarming yet heartwrenching word called 'Love'..yes its true tat without love we wouldnt exist am i rite?i mean our parents fall in love n so on the fairytale ending kind..but hav u stopped to wonder as well tat some of our parents were having arranged or forced marriages,n some of us are born just so tat grandparents were happy to knw tat they had a grandchild??so c'mon..love doesnt play apart in any of tat..its just damn stupid..so i'm just saying..for my case,i hav strong doubts n disbelief in love as i had girl's toying wih my heart for watever reasons for the 4th time(damn foolish rite?i knw)so i'm not sure bout love anymore..especially when now,i just lost a war even without tryiing to win a battle..wat can i say?love has to be mutual,i love her,she doesnt love mec coz she loves him,n i'm sure he loves her..n everyones happy.. tats always how it should be n forever will be..i dun wanna fight since it will only complicate things,not make it better :D

Random survey..

2009-07-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

1. Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed ?
My Ass,if u can reach it tat is..

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?
Agitated since it isnt the weekends?

3. Who was the last person you took photo with ?
Cant remember,long time din take photo with anyone..

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled ?
Wat do u tink?do i look spoiled?(say yes n u'll be killed by my bare hands)

5. Would you ever donate blood ?
To a hot chick?sure..to a not so hot one?i'll reconsider

6.Have you had a bestfriend who was an opposite sex ?
Nope,not to the extent that i have any best friend ever in my whole life..

7. Do you want someone dead ?
Sure,those bad people..who has no conscience..

8.What does your last message says?
ouh,wouldnt u wanna knw..(my mouth is sealed)

9. What are you thinking right now ?
Wishing i was the guy she loved;but since i'm not,hope she's happy with him..

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now ?
Question not specific enough,if u mean by Megan Fox,tat would be 110percent yes :D

11. What time did you go to bed last night ?
tat would be at 10 30pm after bidding gd nite to this silly girl i knw of :D

12. Where did you buy the t-shirt you're wearing now ?
Your parent's Tshirt store,cool isnt it?

13. Is someone on your mind ?
If Megan Fox,i tink yes ah..coz besides her,sure got alot.. :D

14. Who was the last person who texted you ?
Amalina!!

15. Tag 8 random people to do this survey .
If i have to tag (8) person,some wouldnt do also,so no point..n lazy to tag them..so whoever read do ah,dun want not my problem..

16. Who is (2) having a relationship with ?
Not applicable

17. Is (3) a male or a female ?.
Not applicable

18. Say something about (1) .
Not applicable

19. Who is (5) to you ?
Not applicable

20. Describe (7) .
Not applicable

21.Is (4) attached ?
Not applicable
22. Do you hate (8) ?
Not applicable

23. What if (6) and (8) gets together ?
Not applicable

Darn Headache..

2009-07-04T20:14:00.005+08:00

Hmm 4th day of Bowling,and today,i stayed on till 6 pm!cool,But Singapore!! both the Boys team n Girls team got 2nd..alrite,i gotta say gd effort on both teams..but i'm amazed at one of the Gold medalist in the boys team...at 1.4 plus metres tall..short boy wearing specs..wow he was sure a surprise to me at winning 1st in the boys event...got to see the only malay singaporean bowler,n if i'm not wrg,her name was Jannah,n not too bad..she's cute when she's blur as well when she smiles haha but budak Singapore Sports School..its undstdable,tat they're very sombong.. :D so after 6pm went home la..wat else?n tats all for my day,i'm off to bed for an early nite since i din had any shut eye yesterday nite...so damn pain tis stupid annoying headache..so nites ppl..

There comes a moment where u can judge a persons reaction,feelings towards u n when u knw tat feeling isnt there...its wise to give up..i knew her feelings arent for me,but y do i continue in false hope?so it is true tat love turns ppl into fools..coz i'm such a fool to hav had these feelings for someone who only treats me as an option;not a priority..when wat i feel for her...is beyond imagination..

Game Over..Big Time!

2009-07-03T10:53:00.006+08:00

''Life is a Maze and Love is a Riddle..'' Anyone agrees with this statement?yes?no?maybe? I for once feel its so so true..Life is a maze due to long journeys full of obstacles just so u get to the next level,but not knowing where the end would be...And Love is very much a riddle to me as,trying to figure out love,is like trying to solve a riddle,or solving an equation tat equates to an irrelevant answer..at a point,its easy to be solved by some,but at another its very difficult to be solved by others..Timing is part and parcel of a Love Equation am i rite? hmm guess my time is up,since another male soul has just beat me towards winning a girl's heart..so its neither almost nor a but..it never was..hmm nvm then,the only option left is? Drop The Girl.. :D

Drop the girl,coz she aint worth my time,my heart was played by her n now left broken n bleeding.. Mistake: Shouldnt have made her my priority when i was only an option to her..The one she looks forward to everyday is the guy,i'm just the last choice or an alternative,out of pity she texts me..and thinking back its so true..should have just leave the lovebirds alone..gosh i'm such a fool :D Since Love is a condition in which Her happiness is essential to my own..i'll just pray tat ur happiness with tat guy,lasts forever and always.. tat'll be all.. :D

Silence is Golden

2009-07-02T20:51:00.002+08:00

2nd day of being a volunteer for the Asian Youth Games today,n so..woke up today..got myself makin my exit out of aunt's house at 6 10am aft bathing..reached the country club at 7am n got ready la..ouh did u knw yesterday one of our Singapore girls got Gold for bowling in her singles yesterday..?dunno?go read newspaper la..dumb dumb..hmm so u still wanna guess who won todays Girls Doubles Event?Needless to say,Singaporeans la.. :D Good job girls..but i'm not so particular on our girls..the amazing team for me was the Thais! yes at the start they were reali shaky i tell u..but one of the girl erm she goes by the name Saebe,Yanee no. 204,did i mention she was a petite n cute girl as well?haha ok enough,i mean she stood out,she contributed the multiple strikes that made the Thais leaped from bottom half to 2nd after 6 games had ended!!!wow..now the team reali deserves admiration from us now people..wouldnt u agree? anyways after that not much happen since it was the Boys Doubles Event...i'm still straight not bisexual so left the field of play,headed to the venue ops centre n get ready to go home..n so i did..texted a certain someone..she replied n then? absolute silence...haha :D funny i tell u..text again at nite to check whether she was still busy..n then she replied so tats gd :)

Asian Youth Games Volunteer..

2009-07-01T20:29:00.003+08:00

hello hello hello!! Welcome to the Live Broadcast of the Asian Youth Games,n today rite at the site of the the action ur with yours truly,Mujahid! woo hoo! :D ok cukop...gosh i'm getting nore lame every single day..well my post for today ppl is well?random..but then again let me share more bout wat i did today..Woke up at 4 today ppl..then cant go back to slp..bummer,but wella gd cause as i got on the Mrt to Yishun at 5 3o am..just so i could take bus 811 to a bus stop..tats still much much further away from the bowling arena called Orchid Bowl,which is located at Orchid country club...stupid..the place reali deep into suburbs or sumtin..long walk from the nearest,n i do hav to emphasise,NEAREST bus stp..but it was worthwhile when i reached the venue operations room or easy said,the SLACKING area..coz of air con la..eh,even volunteers nids breaks wat..hmm so the bowling thing started at 9am all the way till 6 i think..n wow the action there?one word..intense..so i was only doing voluntary work..not as those stupid secondary students as usherers but the supervisor..i so wonder y i got this post..but who cares?as long as i can slack wat..make full use of air con room *wide smiles*n at 2pm..my voluntary work was done..only for the day..still got till next monday..everyday volunteer..no pay but at least i'm killing time :D

**Was supposed to ask a certain someone,silliest someone i ever met *laughs*out today but...like i told her before..tis would b the time when i'm a fool asking her out at an awkward timing..silly me..so easy said,din get to go out with her..there's always a nxt time rite?erm maybe?maybe not?err..i dunno..

This is the part where i go..
...When i feel i almost ask u out...but...

I'm kinda,sorta,feel tis way :D

2009-06-30T17:05:00.003+08:00

Ever wondered wat happened to the guy who got his heart broken by a girl??Aha,i knw..wat happened.. :D read in to find out,ouh n sry if u happen to fall asleep..do tag to give comments on tis post yea? :D**i only wished tat this didnt happen to me**

I was shy to make my move,
That's why I cried when you left my world,
My life was full of loneliness,
Unless I see u walking home
That's when I started writing letters,after letters,after letters,
It seems my papers running out faster

Gotta be gotta be my everything
You've got what I want
Gotta be gotta be my everything
You've got what I need,girl..Gotta be gotta be my everything
Tell me what can I do,girl..
When I'm really really crazy over you,

I've never cried like this
The words I wrote for you
I noticed you from far
But all you see is like I don't give a damn
Boxes piling up
Are you going off
Im telling you its too tough
When I feel I almost had you but...

Yo,What if 2 ppl like each other so much, but,
they don't do anythin bout it?Here's what happens
Once upon a time, there was a boy and a girl
This is so typical they were so typical
For example boy loves girl,but girl doesn't know that boy loves her coz,
the boy is shy, the boy is why
The girl still stands strong livin her life
they were very good friends,havin very good chances to mend
and the boy,pretends that he had no love for the girl anyway,
he keeps to himself in the place that he stays,
ah, he writes letters one after another,in other ways that he possibly could, sayin that
gotta be gotta be my everythin that pressure was so big that he grew many pimples right
and sings to a song that he likes and it goes like this

I've never cried like this
The words I wrote for you
I noticed you from far
But all you see is like I don't give a damn
Boxes piling up
Are you going off
Im telling you its too tough
When I feel I almost had you but...

Just moving on, from me she's gotta hear this song
I know that she'll be ok and I know that I'll be loving her so...
She's my soul, my everything in life I can have..
I guess I gotta let her go..

It was another Monday,'
and the boy was workin at Macdonalds,savin up money to buy a present
a present that was meant for the girl,it was her birthday the next day (word?)
he memorised his final script and wrote the last letter,
hopin that it was abit better,than the one before that's what it's for,
he was ready to make the first move ready to score,but,
suddenly, in front of him orderin fries and a cheeseburger was none other than the one he wanted,the girl with another guy,she smiled he winked they both said hi!
he was dumbfounded,jaws dropped to the floor closed it,
he ran straight out the door and back to his crib where he cried and cried and cried and cried

I've never cried like this
The words I wrote for you
I noticed you from far
But all you see is like I don't give a damn
Boxes piling up
Are you going off
Im telling you its too tough
When I feel I almost had you but...

Wished i was a superhero?

2009-06-29T07:36:00.005+08:00

Peter Parker(spiderman) has Mary Jane Watson
Scott Summers(cyclops) has Jean Grey
Reed Richards(mr fantastic) has Susan Storm(invisible woman)
Bruce Banner(the hulk) has Betty Ross
Sam Witwicky (Shia LeBeouf) has Mikaela Banes(Megan Fox)

Need i say more?? i doubt it..so wat does these guys have in common?they're heroes..so does tat mean if i was some hero then only i'll get a girl worth loving?tats just stupid..i dun hav looks n my heart isnt sumting most girls would udstd..so does tat mean its reali complicated for me to get a girl?my analysis tells me 4 things bout guys.. 1)guys who hav good looks and a good heart;its definitely easy for them to attract a girl 2)Guys who hav only gd looks,cliche as it may seem to most girls..guys still can charm girls just by looks,tat explains y most relationships dont work out 3)Guys who hav a gd heart with average looks has either minimum or maximum difficulties in attracting a girl they desire but the chances are there n most of the time they get the girl.....
So now after 3 things,the last but certainly not the least the 4th option,guys who do not hav any looks nor to girls he has an average heart,or a not gd enough heart..now tis type of guys..Are they destined for the Single life? hmm i think so..coz i'm defintely,confirmed plus chop aint the 1st option,neither the 2nd,and hardly the 3rd which leaves the 4th choice for me.. *sighs* Live,Love,Laugh?? i tink my life is meant to be Lived,and just to Laugh and maybe to strike out Love..coz i'm reali losing hope on the feeling most people desire,and those in it enjoy every second of it..the term they called 'Love' ..

A wise relative once told me,search for a girl,not by the looks,but by the heart,and not only by the heart but one tat would stick with u thru every odds or obstacles,one tat sticks with u thru thick n thin,share their weals n woe as well as joy and happiness..then i wondered,wat she said was true BUT..just like most girls who says guy arent faithful,plays with a girl's heart n not serious..i would say the same for most girls nowadays..so..is there any girl for me out there with qualities beyond imagination?dont blame me for being choosy..we hav to be,to ensure the future doesnt crumble to pieces like a building with no basic foundation..currently i feel tat i'm having a crush on a girl..since a crush is defined as a one-sided feeling of 'loving' a person..i feel tat she doesnt feel the same way bout me as i do bout her..tats obvious from my observation..i dun tink she would care either,coz i think its an impossibility for us to happen,since she doesnt show any sign of treating me more than just a friend,ouh and one other aspect to consider?she may already have a guy tat resides in her heart? *sighs* i dun intend to take the fall coz i'm risking everitin,n i certainly feel she wont be the one catching..so just crushing..maybe it will go away in due time?only god knows..
''My so called Love story tat i dream about did hav a start,but it will soon come to an end;very similar to its start...which is? Just Friends..not some happily ever after..'' **wishful thinking i suppose**

Updates over the past 72 hours

2009-06-29T06:57:00.003+08:00

Alrite,its a Monday!left my blog to rust over a period of 3 days? haha yup,been busy so i'll roughly reveal wat i did over the period of 3 days...

Friday:Afternoon,rite after my prayers,head off to Vivo with the thought of wanting to catch the movie: Transformers 2:Revenge of TheFallen at Golden Village but when my cuz and i got there,the only available time slot was at 11 30pm onwards! crazy,who wanna watch so late? so off we went to dhoby ghaut to watch at The Grand Cathay,in mind thinking since its town area surely crowded as well,but to our surprise,there was an available time slot at 5.15pm!but seating?rite at the front -.- but wat the heck,i didnt want to miss transformers after hearing how great n humorous the movie was so got to watch! and so i did...overall it was reali nice..i mean there was some touching moments between Shia LeBeouf(Sam) and Megan Fox(Mikala) i gotta admit,i'm so darn jealous of Sam..argh having a hot and beautiful girlfriend,tats faithful..but tats movies,a small segment of wat people call fantasy..but mostly Transformers 2 was bout the action-packed,cool graphics scenes and a whole lot of humour to..reali funny..the movie got most of the viewers laughing .. :D

Saturday: Not much happened on this day,just that i din sleep for 24 hours since catching the movie the previous day..went to grandma's house,3 cuz came for a sleepover..how to sleep?so overnite..talked and talked..laugh over reali hilarious jokes to the stupid and crappy ones as well...nearly woke up the adults in the house but glad we didnt..

Sunday:Woke up at 2plus coz din sleep 24 hours rite..only to get yet another headache..gosh the headache wont stop..crazy..but wat the hell..so watched tv,texted someone till it was time for me to have a game of soccer at 6 plus..finished soccer went straight back home,showered,watch sum tv..and dozed off at 1 only to remember tat i din get to finish texting..hmm silly me..

I certainly wished u knew..

2009-06-25T18:13:00.015+08:00

Hmm my days arent getting much to talk bout...same old usual days..still boring,not much fun..but if tis blog isnt left updated..i'm afraid i'll get too lazy to even look at it..so might as well spend sum time blogging bout sumting...these few days,i meant recently...for i'm not so sure reasons why..i seem to be reali happy..though boredom is sumtin you people nor myself can prevent..i was happy...haha maybe coz i feel a change in my everyday 'things to do'...maybe tats y?dunno either..or maybe its coz...?nah,i'm just making assumptions..how foolish can i get?well it would be a dream come true if it happened :D but then again,its a high impossibility...lets face reality..i'm not Adidas,whereby i can say with utmost confidence 'Impossible is Nothing'...i'm drawing the line,the fine line between fantasy n reality..so i'd stick to reality thank u.. :Dhmm so boring much?yea it is...tell me sumtin i dun knw...tats all for now..i'm putting myself to slp already! gosh..wouldnt want tat to happen to readers.. :D

**Ever since the first time,i felt tat tingling sensation in me..but i couldnt put a finger to it..tis feeling of warmth,made me smile at nothing most of the time,which makes ppl tink i'm crazy..and makes my heart feel light..but tis heart beats so damn fast when ears hear your name,or eyes tat see ur image..and now wat i wished is for u to put tat sense of touch called hands..towards the left side of my chest..n hear my heart beating like a speeding rocket..then tell me..wat am i feeling?..i hope,its not just wishful thinking..

So Why Bother..?

2009-06-23T12:16:00.006+08:00

i did some thinking yesterday and i think i've got my answer to my question...what happens to a love story that didnt even have a beginning?haha,maybe tats only coz i've been thinking too much bout having a happy ending i failed to see tat this love story of mine didnt have a start to it..i guess it was just wishful thinking tat most people encounter..lets face it..a nobody like me..who even cares??so if anyone i asked now..any of u readers willing to go out with a nobody like me??no?i thought as much..haha i can only dream about it but it wont come true..well being turned down was always sumtin common for a nobody rite?so guess its back to the basics..*sighs* then,i asked myself why does this heart of mine feel a reali sharp pain when i was being turned down??most of the time it would just be''its alrite,i dun mind'' with no feeling of hurt..but yesterday..i din feel the way i do everytime..instead i hid my true feelings..i should hav just said..'no its alrite,even if i didnt ask u out its fine,since school hols is almost over,the next school holiday would already be Hari Raya,in September..' so wats the use of asking the third time?i might as well be turned down yet again..my foolishness,i knew that when the 1st time ur being turned down,there's sure a 2nd..but i got my hopes up high,n now its left crumbling down..haha so would there b a 3rd?dunno,still left undecided..maybe when this heart tats represented as a toy for girls to play with has healed from the pain then i'll reconsider..so for now..i wanna be left in seclusion,away from everyting..

**p.s..i wished she loved me,but since she didnt..these wrds shall be lost in my memories,never to be spoken aloud..

Just my day..

2009-06-23T11:58:00.004+08:00

Hmm i'm gonna talk bout yesterday,,since i find tat yesterday night was quite interesting for me..who's up for a little lecture? i attended a talk yesterday..and it happened to be uniquely interesting..nt those boring ones tat nvr fails to put me to sleep..hmm at first i thought the lecturer was sum stupid boring guy..but i was proven wrg..he was quite a charmer coz he jokes a lot..and wat amazed me..he can sing reali well..nearly every ting he said he made a song out of it..so he got my applause..there was one thing he said bout FATE..tat if its meant to be..nothing could ever change the outcome..he reflected this upon the true story of Prophet Noah (Nabi Noh) who build an Ark because god asked him to to prevent himself and his ppl from being washed away by a huge flood..Noah's son,n wife was stubborn..they didnt want to get on the Ark and instead they told Noah that they were gonna climb a tall mountain..n when they did..the huge flood washed away Noah's wife n son..so wat do i mean by this?God wanted Noah to be safe,as he was the one who created the flood..he also wanted to see who was on the right path towards heaven in seeing who obeyed Noah n who didnt..so when Noah's son n wife was washed away by the flood,it was evident that they weren't on the righteous path to heaven n it was fated that those who disobeys God shall perish n die..

2009-06-22T09:44:00.000+08:00

Would you care if i confessed?

2009-06-22T09:00:00.003+08:00

Is it impossible,maybe,to have a love so strong?..that nothing could ever compare??

Cause i'm having doubts,bout my present and my future in loving a girl..When Love is meant as the sentence ''When you love someone let it free,if it returns,its meant to be..if it doesnt it nvr was''so my question would be..How can i show my feelings to a girl..whom i care for..but i'm unsure and afraid she doesnt feel the same?how can i confess when there's a slight chance..ok a very big chance she still has feelings for her previous boyfriend?hey i'm nowhere near the standard of her boyfriend tat spent 1 year 1 mth and 4 days with her..furthermore,now tat they're close,it isnt making my chance any easier now does it..the love she had for her previous boyfriend was immeasurable..though having arguments during their past relationship..its still worth every second being with each other..so should i give up?or should i stay on? wat if she doesnt want to be in a relationship as she feels her previous boyfriend is the only one tat resides in her heart? then wat?well another dead end for me perhaps..if only there was a guidance or a path even a sign to assure me that i can win her heart..sumtin quite impossible for sumone of my standard and capability..wat can an average guy like me offer? an imperfect heart tat only beats for her..would she consider?i wouldnt tink so..not sure if she reads this..all the more better if she doesnt..she wouldnt knw bout my feelings..

** Impossible maybe,but worth one last try..and i'll wait on her reply..

Maybe i'm thinking too much...hoping for a better day..?

Sunday Morning..Sunday Boring..

2009-06-22T00:11:00.004+08:00

Ok,my day wasnt tat boring la..just tat the title part i had to find a wrd tat rhymes haha :D lame i knw..but i wouldnt care..too dizzy to care..alrite!its a Sunday tats actuali kinda common for me..hmm early in the morning was woken up by a certain sumone's miss call..hmm tats only coz i requested to be woken up..had a soccer match ting at Chong Pang..so i went there reluctantly actuali..but since there wasnt enough players..might as well kill time rather than rotting at cuz home..i played...n guess wat?loss both games..but important ting i had fun.. :D coz i was laughing the whole 2 games till stomach cramps..hey,my stomach only gt cramps coz i din had any breakfast :D so after the 2 games my day of soccer for the day had came to an end..n by then,it was 3 30pm went back cuz house..n the most unexpected n most unwanted ting happened to me yet again...HEADACHE!! gosh i hav such darn luck with headaches..n so i slept..i slept for about 4-5hours!! woah tat was quite long when i wanted only a resting nap..i was woken up by an unexpected vibration of the handphone :D and guess wat? my headache got worse!! y must it happen tis way..*sighs*at least i got a special sumone to keep me company so it was worthwhile *wide smile* so now i'm posting at the cost of my splittin head but b4 i forget wat to write..might as well post a little sumtin..so tats all bout my day..n its 12 am so should get some shut eye :D

Unique-ness is in my blood..

2009-06-20T00:29:00.008+08:00

Alrite 12 30a.m and now i decide to try something not so ordinary...if it gets too nonsensical for you readers...i suggest dun read further yea? for those interested ones, do continue reading..no one's stopping u.. :D

NEWS FLASH!!

You're with Muhd Mujahid..and for those who's wondering what i'm up to..don't wonder anymore..i'm trying to be different in publishing a blog post..i want to do it...the news kind of style..

So,have any of u people been in a relationship?how does it feel like being in a relationship?how does it feel when u've broken up from a relationship?hmm i've questioned this myself and definitely to some others..pack with my own close,personal kind of observation and i've seen many..different kind of ppl in different kind of relationships and some tats turned sour over a period of time while some,still strong in holding on maintaining tat relationship..so what have i uncovered?

I came across many,those with relationship problems..and those still cherishing beautiful moments with their loved one..

For those i've seen having problems..my deduction is simple..and i conclude that there were..

no chemistry or they weren't meant to be!!
either one party or both,were too immature to be in a relationship!!
Lack of undstding leads to unnecessary arguments or fights which eventuali lead to break-ups!!

For those i've seen NOT having problems..still maintaining their blissful together-ness..my deduction would be? i hereby come to a conclusion..that..

happiness of being together always and having a principle of not falling apart..makes an unbreakable bond between two
even when simple misuderstandings or grave mistakes would be well handled by a couple in a matured and rationalise manner so as not to result in hurt and despair in both or either party
having the mentality to push further to as long as it takes,forever or till death do us part strongly embedded in them and that without their loved one,it feels as though life has no meaning..

And tat is wat i've come to conclude...well so far i guess.. :D but hopefully it means a great deal to some..so tats all for now.. Muhd Mujahid Kamsani signing off!!

Been thinking all nite..

2009-06-20T00:09:00.004+08:00

Alrite,tis is great..its 12am in the morning and i should be getting my shut eye...should already be aslp 2 hours ago!!! but cant sleep dunno due to unknwn reason maybe?? hmm so gotta blog sumtin long so tat when i eventuali read the whole ting again i'll put myself to slp..but then again,i'm not sure if i have much energy to type a long post so we'll see now wont we... :D so yesterday since its past midnite..was a normal,usual and average Friday...didnt go out but still got company..for tat i'm thankful to lovely people on msn.. hopefuli today,being a Saturday! a weekend start would be much better and perhaps...interesting in an unexpected way?haha i wouldnt knw..if i did i'll stop being a student go work as a fortune teller or sumtin..so i'll just have to be patient,wait and find out rite?

**p.s..Nah,dun wanna drag this post too long,my blog is as wordy as it already gets..sry,no pics in my blog currently,when the sky is green,n the grass is blue then maybe i'll consider taking pics n posting them *laughs*

Friday's Post...

2009-06-19T10:56:00.003+08:00

Good Morning to readers!!i'm getting bored,shucks,every single day passes so slowly..its still only my first week of hols,there's still 2 weeks..bummer!! but nevertheless..this computer,though it lags and gets on my nerves most of the time..it still never fails to keep me company,i mean without the computer,i cant blog..or sign into msn to chat with the lovely people tat eases my boredom as well :D then again..looked forward for today since going out for a movie,but guess some things or some responsibilities are not meant to be avoided.. :D so c'mon,Mujahid has to be udstding!! i hav to be reasonable la :D since i'm a gd boy,no doubts bout tat! haha (puji diri,layankan je) i would be lying if i said i wasnt disappointed at all..sure i am,but just a little,coz i hav to sympathise..someone's house is gonna be the next kindergarten for those young ones!! :D so i'd say i'm still lucky tat my house isnt.. :D anyways..today isnt the only day to go out for a movie..hey look at the weather,so hot,sure want to go out?haha :Dtink twice,or maybe thrice for tat matter :D so tats it,ending my post here before i put myself to sleep.. aha! :D

**p.s.. Caring for ur family,especialli young cousins is a responsibility,its definitely more important,i hav 5 younger siblings so i should knw.. :D anyways,i'll ask again for an outing to the movies when the time is rite,when it isnt so hectic with school and maybe after propper planning?

Sleeq-sembunyi

2009-06-18T13:48:00.000+08:00

My Personal Writing...

2009-06-17T20:30:00.005+08:00

Dont ever say that i dont love you no more,

When you're the one hiding,away from tis war....

When you walked away,i remained firmed to this ground,

Hoping and yearning tat you'll at least turn around....

My dearest,u turned tis life of mine into a sunder,

You made me curious so i began to wonder,

Did you forget,the promise u made?

Or was your intention to turn tis love to hate?

And now all tats left is just tis broken song,

To help me figure out wats right and wats wrong....

Why oh why did u hav to go,

Now all alone,u got me missing u so....

Was tis love a game u played all along?

Or was it just to weaken me when u knew our love was strong?

Since love was unique,really meant to be cherished,

Never did i loved again,fearing tat my future will perish..

So believe me, ur the one in my heart,

And please stay there,dun ever break apart...

No fighting,no fighting..

2009-06-17T20:02:00.003+08:00

Hmm there's no more room for fighting or no more time to point fingers..coz u knw wat..it gets tiring blaming each other when there's definitely a suitable explanation for wat went wrg in tis terrible ordeal..i'm a human,n u are too..if u aint tired,i am..tired of everyting tats been wrg ever in my life so i'd rather be the one throwing the white towel..not towards us but towards pointing fingers n making a wise decision...never in my life hav i made a wise decision and i certainly knw tis aint gonna be the first either so the choice is on u..to be or not to be lies on ur shoulders..not mine any longer coz the fact tat i'm damn exhausted doesnt show tat i'm weak n i give up easily...its to show tat i'm strong enough to give in coz its pointless to go on pointing fingers when there reali isnt such ting as perfection..so i urge u to make a decision..be it a wise one so tat both parties don't suffer,watever the choice would be..i'm fine both ways since i'm counting on my fate as my way of life..wat goes,i follow..when some people fight for love,dun even tink i'll b the one dirtying my hands,since i wont,i'll just b standing,watching and maybe, i might be having a small laugh while i'm at it.. :D you knw why??Love isnt just a word..it isnt worth fighting..Love goes beyond boundaries of words or sumtin to fight over..Fact is Love needs no 3rd party,when both feelings of both parties are mutual..and so,tis lonely soul tat has his fate sealed,is waiting..for a love tat needs no fight :D

**p.s. That kind of Love isnt impossible to find,its just not easy nor is it too difficult to find..i'm just looking at my watch wondering when tat kind of experience would happen :D

Fate,depicts my way of life..

2009-06-16T16:25:00.002+08:00

Looking at the odds,my chances are zero to nothing..so now wat? ''pelan pelan carik'' i guess..dunno wat i mean?i rather not let anyone knw bout tis..i shouldnt even be posting bout tis..but since i cant let anyone knw..might as well i share with this blog of mine..*sighs* The first was a dead end after some time,n the second,i just nid to pick up the pieces,put them together and i found my answer..wat answer?another dead end i guess? just my luck..maybe fate isnt meant to be on my side,since i kip running towards dead ends during my journeys..maybe its fated tat i kip having dead ends..so tat i'll always be kept doing the search but for how long will it last?i'm cetainly at my limits alrite,having to endure long,heartfelt journeys,only to be disappointed in the end,worse still,to knw tat the journey was a total waste rite from the very start..hmm my fate is sealed this way?wat must i do to accept a better fate?i guess tats up to Him to decide..

wow,i should stop complaining already..haha i mean its no use saying all these la,i'll put readers to sleep anyway..

**Oh God,i'm just a slave,like all others who requests tings from u..i knw i'm in no position to ask anitin cosidering how many people's nids u hav to attend to..but i dun ask u for my request to be granted straight away,but at least be granted one day..all i seek for is a better life,one tats totali different from wat i'm facing now,so i do beg of u to fulfill this request..and i hope u do..Amin

Chemistry..

2009-06-16T07:51:00.003+08:00

I stumbled upon a blog earlier today..and read a post tat kinda struck me..a love chemistry;sometimes u might see it in a gd way,but sometimes,it just isnt..ok maybe it isnt interpreted in a gd way since wat i read earlier was frm a sad person i tink..so wat are ur views bout love chemistry..?a gd ting..or a bad one? i'm not reali sure at first,but i roughly got a gist of it..

Hmm i'm gonna be neutral bout tis,since i dun wanna take sides,so from wat i see in most careful observation,guys,especiali those who are not so good,or simply put,bad..their sense of style in a relationship would be...?'anyting comes,anyting goes' so wat i mean by tis is tat,they dun much care bout a girl, as long as they are fond of the girl,maybe in terms of looks or even in terms of heart...they would want to woo the girl..or then again if the girl likes the guy,he would just go with the flow and this is normali wat hurts a girl when a guy isnt serious n treats a girl as if they were a piece of tissue tat had been used then thrown away..normali,girls who are good and decent fall for these type of guys,not sure why,but mostly because guys can be reali convincing..rite girls? haha :D i'm not sure bout theories,but i feel tat good guys are harder to come by than good girls..most say tat chemistry between a guy and a girl is a mixture.. gd and gd dont match,but rather a gd guy and a bad girl all of a sudden turns out a mixture of a good and long lasting love chemistry!
Aww shucks!so tat means...?either i hav to turn bad in order to find a gd girl,or i hav to search for a bad girl to hav this chemistry equation called love to work out a mixture tats long lasting..Zzz i hate it when i'm right,i hate it when i'm wrg.. so wat now?? not sure,because that, still remains a mystery tats mind boggling..even for someone of my calibre..

In the morning..

2009-06-16T07:31:00.003+08:00

Good morning readers,or i dunno how many reads my blog but nvm..anyways,i'm trying to be reali hardworking in updating my blog here,so dun i at least desserve a round of applause here people?haiya,nvm tat as well coz i knw u may be saving tat applause for some others tat reali deserves an applause.. *sighs* anyways,its 7.35 am in the morning but i cant seem to get any shut-eye...dunno why or maybe coz tis headache hasnt subsided yet..no tats not it,since i dun wanna go to sleep already :D so wat to do rite?so bored,no contacts online on msn,even if there are,i dun tink i wanna bother them now,since its early in the morning,i bet they'll be reali pissed off if i bothered them..so better not,i still wanna stay safe,not chased by a chopper or sumtin..alrite i guess i'll end my post here,wanna find a suitable remedy for splitting headaces OTHER than sleeping :D
**p.s..And so,will there be a happy ending in this roller coaster ride i call my love life??i wouldnt know,if i knew i wouldnt be in tis state wondering if u turn out to be another i almost had...but..

Recently..

2009-06-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

Been having splitting headaches for the past few days..for some i told them,n for some i keep mum so tat they wont ask me to slp n rest..haha :D i'm still alrite wat..but at least now feeling a little better after a certain sumone made me slp! haha :D well hopefuli she took her medicine and rested as well yea.. anyways,not much happened yesterday (its already past 12 am) haha since i'm still cooped up at home with only the computer to lean on.. Zzz most would agree tat holidays would not b much fun when ur staying cooped up at home rite people?? haha well wat to do,its not as if we can posess our parents to convince them to let us out rite?n then the other alternative?u do a house-break?(house version of prison break)hello,its the 21st century,not like kampong era..u'll b courting death if ur trying to plan an escape..furthermore,wat bout those who live in high level?they'll fall,not for a person,but to their death..so anyways,bearing with the holidays as of now,crossing fingers hoping tat it would pass sooner :D
**p.s i still wanna b the love tats gonna last,i wanna b the first person u wake up to n the last u say gd nite to..but maybe,its just wishful tinkin on my part..*sighs*

Adapted from a friend's woes..

2009-06-15T07:08:00.002+08:00

Oh bulan..... Enggan melayan diriku lagi, Pabila Airmata membasahi pipi,Dan lagu lagu di radio ,Seolah olah memerli aku ,Pabila Kau bersama yang lain, Adakah perasaan benci ini ,Sebenarnya cinta, Yang masih Bersemadi untukmu ,Dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan ,Disebalik senyuman mu itu, Kau juga Merindui aku...
Ku enggan Berpura pura ku bahagia, Ku enggan Melihat kau bersama si dia ,Oh ku akui cemburu, Mula menular dalam diri ,Pabila Kau bersama yang lain ,Pabila kau merenung matanya ,Ku rebah Jatuh ke bumi ,Disaat kau benar benar mahu pergi, Seperti Ku bernafas dalam air ,Dan sebenarnya, Aku rindu ,Aku tak mampu... Tanpamu.....

Great words from a broken hearted soul.. :D

Stop,think,Reflect

2009-06-14T16:10:00.002+08:00

OK firstly,wat i'm gonna say is kinda random to u ppl but i feel its kinda great tat u should knw.. ok ever had a broken heart??then reflect on tis quotes ''There's no ocean without waves,no love without pain and no lover without jealousy'' so wat do i mean by this??we cant expect a perfect love..there r bound to b ups n downs..so dun take love for granted..coz mishaps are bound to happen..so next time when ur hurt in a love problem..reflect tis into ur head before u start cursing or swearing bout the other party.. :D the other quote is '' A broken heart is like a bent metal rod tat can nvr be straightened again..even if its straightened or ''repaired'',it can never be as straight as before..''so wat do i mean by tis?? aha,tis applies to ppl who has broken hearts actuali..so lets say u've broken many hearts up to date,i suggest u stop after knowin this quote coz u might not know one day u might also be in tis state..trust me u wouldnt want to be in tis state.. :D i've been through it..well a few times..so lets just say my heart has a few plasters on it la.. :D alrite i guess tats all before i put u readers to slp..

In sickness,In health

2009-06-14T12:03:00.002+08:00

Alrite,today's a new day,also like always..a boring one..*sighs*wat can i say,had a splitting headache yesterday but didnt tell the ppl i chatted with bout it...till it was unbearable,had to tell Fie coz i badly needed a rest..n so i rested..went to slp..but it didnt do much in making the headache better..i keep tossing n turning..till i woke up again at 2 30 am..well since i was awake..my dad urged me to do some nite prayers..n so i did.. :D after which i went back to slp..n surprisingly i slept better only to b woken up again at 5 30am to pray..since its a must..i cant neglect my prayers..so i did my prayers n went straight to bed there after..and finali, had quality slp only to wake up at 10 30 am..woke up feeling lethargic alrite,but one ting still remained..zzz my headache was still present..just tat it wasnt tat serious as the day before.. so here i am blogging now.. :D n crossing my fingers hoping tat this headache of mine reali goes away soon..so wat now for today?i dun hav any plans..bummer! but i dunno..maybe planning to go out alone today??hmm anyone mind tagging along with this lonely soul here?? haha :D its alrite..guess i'm asking too much..u people might already have plans for today *sighs*

My darn holidays...

2009-06-13T12:47:00.002+08:00

Holidays has arrived..and tat means no school..haiya..ever been in a situation tat when school starts,u 've started to wonder when holidays woul arrive?n now its the holidays,n coz there's a sense of boredom in u..u cant wait for school to reopen?? coz now tats exactly wat i've been feeling..n i hope 3 weeks past just like 3 seconds but then i'd be asking too much..plus on a bad notice..having school to reopen isnt a good ting at all..since the 2nd week of july i got a test tat adds to my end of year results...ZZZ worse still,its a difficult subject tat consists of tings u reali dun wanna knw...so now wat??study??haha i dun tink so..come on,its still early to study..so chillax..i'm still engrossed in making myself less bored so i dun wanna put myself to sleep by studying rite?haha i guess searching for fun things to do would be best but then again..wats a fun thing to do? -.- maybe gonna go out once a week?or everyday?haha i;m not sure myself actuali..been a while since i played soccer so i dunno..lets see..todays saturday and its so not my day today since at nite i hav plans..plans tat would make me die of boredom?or suck the life out of me..both ways..i'm dead..so now i'm just waiting for my time... :D haha okok so my post shall end here..i dun tink its tat long but hopefuli wont put ppl to sleep..dun want tis to turn out into a composition rite? haha k till next time :D

First Blog First post..

2009-06-13T07:45:00.000+08:00

hmm..i'm not much of a blogger or a gd writer but i'll try n see how much i can blog...i'm a lazy person when it comes to daily updates but i'll try my best since i'm already creating this blog..so this is just a random post since its 8am in the morning..wat to update?haha :D maybe i'll update later,or tmr if laziness gets in me :D