Tuesday, June 23, 2009
So Why Bother..?
12:16 PM ♥ Mujahid ♥ Perma ♥
i did some thinking yesterday and i think i've got my answer to my question...what happens to a love story that didnt even have a beginning?haha,maybe tats only coz i've been thinking too much bout having a happy ending i failed to see tat this love story of mine didnt have a start to it..i guess it was just wishful thinking tat most people encounter..lets face it..a nobody like me..who even cares??so if anyone i asked now..any of u readers willing to go out with a nobody like me??no?i thought as much..haha i can only dream about it but it wont come true..well being turned down was always sumtin common for a nobody rite?so guess its back to the basics..*sighs* then,i asked myself why does this heart of mine feel a reali sharp pain when i was being turned down??most of the time it would just be''its alrite,i dun mind'' with no feeling of hurt..but yesterday..i din feel the way i do everytime..instead i hid my true feelings..i should hav just said..'no its alrite,even if i didnt ask u out its fine,since school hols is almost over,the next school holiday would already be Hari Raya,in September..' so wats the use of asking the third time?i might as well be turned down yet again..my foolishness,i knew that when the 1st time ur being turned down,there's sure a 2nd..but i got my hopes up high,n now its left crumbling down..haha so would there b a 3rd?dunno,still left undecided..maybe when this heart tats represented as a toy for girls to play with has healed from the pain then i'll reconsider..so for now..i wanna be left in seclusion,away from everyting..**p.s..i wished she loved me,but since she didnt..these wrds shall be lost in my memories,never to be spoken aloud..
Labels: Would she care or would she not?? nah..fat hope :D
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